Title: Consciousness Consultant

Gender: Female

Age: 43

Sun Sign: Aquarius

Chinese Sign: Wood Snake

Location: San Diego, CA

hmmm… i'm a sensitive soul. have always felt the pain and plight of life beings around me. even as a child i had an awareness that well… i should not have had yet.

i wish i could say i lived well with these special gifts. i did not. i ran off to be like… the status quo. chase those ridiculous dreams. convince myself 'that' is what life was about. sigh.

it wasn't until major crisis hit and a lifetime of living the lost, confused, capitalistic, 'drug around by my nose ring' through the lies and illusions that i simply found myself at the end of my rope. stuck. unable to move. so broken and unhappy and drained of all life force.

a friend, seeing how bad off i was made a suggestion. having no other success or ideas i took it. i signed up and took LANDMARK.

many scowl at this… refering to it as a cult. for me it was the best thing at the right time. a total kick in the ass… pull the self placed 'wool off my eyes' and see what “I” had done both knowing and unknowing in my life. the concept that “i was the creator of my life and my reality… no one else” was exactly what i needed.

i took a few more of their classes as i was meaningfully setting up my new life… my new beginning. though i have not been involved with them since, the tools i learned and need are right here with me.

from there i found a strange connection with buddhism. i began studying more as a philosophy since i am very against organized religion. throughout time i find i have moved buddhism into a 'religion' for myself and that is satisfying.

i am at a weird crossroad where i am obsessed with the studying of myself in this body i crafted from matter. a lot of the books and ideas i am searching and reading deal with the convergence of science, quantum, chemical, conscious, and spiritual. it all hooks up. after all… IT HAS TO! cause here I AM!

i am also intrigued with wholistic medicine and practitioners. i have my first appointment with SHEN creator richard pavek. i am hoping to finish off the unresolved emotions stuck in my being to get on with better things in life… i'll keep you posted on my experiences.

my ultimate frustration right now is the hassle of having to care for the “ME.” it gets in the way of what my dreams and passion are… the taking care and helping of other living beings. this is my BIG DREAM.

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